Once again, I have been struck by the enormity of the situation. I'm in love, engaged, want to spend the rest of my life with Djruuh and he is away right now, from this past November until at least this time next year. It's like dating but without all that "horrible" togetherness.

I want to marry someone who won't be home for sure for the next 18 years.

What on earth am I getting myself in to?